Bedtime Talks

Last night as I was saying goodnight to Jeffrey:

Jeffrey: it looks like you are growing a baby in your tummy.
Me:  I know, but I'm not remember mommy has colitis and I have a lot of gas in my tummy and I have to burp it out.
Jeffrey laughs:)
Jeffrey: I wish we could grow a baby.
Me: Talk to God about that.
Jeffrey laughing: God can't put a baby in you tummy from way up there.
Me: Really b/c that's how it works.
Jeffrey: Mommy when you sleep He comes down and puts the baby in your tummy.

2nd Anniversary

Yesterday, May 7, was the 2nd anniversary of Jamie's delivery.  May 18 will be the anniversary of the funeral and the 19th  of the burial.  

I am doing fine now, but last week was not so good.  I think the anticipation of the day is worst than the actual day in itself.  I was surprised how upset and emotional I have been, but Josh was not at all.  I guess he knows me better than I know myself.  

Mother's Day is a hard day because two years ago it was just days after I delivered Jamie and I was still in the hospital.  Josh said he just wants me to be happy with the boys and him and excited to open whatever they get me.  I have been showing Jeffrey different items as we have been out so hopefully he will remember:)  I am happy and will be happy and joyful on Mother's Day, but I will always have in the back of my mind the three Stoneham babies in heaven.  

Lost Donkeys

This week I have been reading in 1 Samuel.  If you start in chapter 9 you can read about how Saul became King of Israel.  Saul's father, Kish, sent him to look for two lost donkeys and he came back a king.  Of course there is more to the story it is pretty interesting you should check it out.  It made me ask the Lord, "what do You want me to become?"  My heavenly father has placed me here at this time to be a wife, mom, friend, teacher, etc.  What will I be when the task is complete?  The donkeys Saul went looking for were found and that could have been it, but Saul allowed the experiences his journey offered to change him.  One day when my tasks here are done I hope to be more than I am today.  When I stand before the throne of God I want Him to see a reflection of His Son.  

Hairy

This is our dog Spaze.

And this is why he stays outside!

 The above photo is one of our compost buckets with all the hair I brushed off Spaze this morning.

Spiritual Warfare

Do you believe in spiritual warfare?  Many people struggle with the concept of angels and demons in the unseen realm.  I believe and have felt the present or affect of angels and demons at different point in my life.  This past Monday is one such time.  The boys were at school and Josh was at work.  I had cleaned the house and then set down to check email and blog.  I got my email checked and then began to blog.  I felt a little lite headed, but kept blogging.  I then stopped to go to the bathroom.  TMI coming up:)  As I was on the toilet I felt very lite headed and thought I might pass out.  So I stayed seated to let this feeling pass.  I then woke up on the floor (pants still down--weird feeling).  I was able to get to the phone and call Josh and he came home to take care of me.  When I fell I hit the step stool we have for Jeffrey.  I have a scratched, swollen,  and busied eye.  Don't worry--I am fine and have a doctor's appointment.  Why is this spiritual warfare?  I was blogging about the movie October Baby and Satan does not want people to see it.  But you must see it.  It is a movie about the sanctity of life.  It gets the point across with entertainment and without be judgemental to those who may not have chosen life.  So is there a medical reason I passed out?  Must likely, but Satan can use our health to try and stop the spread of Truth.  Don't let Satan stop you today.  Fight against him with truth from God's Word.  Pray and ask God to protect you physically and mentally from Satan's attacks.  My God is Mighty and if I ask Him He will give me the strength to overcome Satan's attacks.

Read more about October Baby at http://www.octoberbabymovie.net/.

The absence of truth is a lie.

Shower Cleaner

As, many of you know I have been using homemade cleaners for some time now.  The only non homemade cleaner I use is Scrubbing bubbles for our shower (tile and glass).  However, I still wasn't happy with the shower.  I have tried different products and none get the hard water and soap scrum off the glass.  Today, I cleaned house.  Side note the boys helped a lot, which was so nice:)  For the shower I used a 1:1 ratio of Dawn and white vinegar in a spray bottle.  Just spray it on let sit for a few minutes ( I cleaned the sinks as I waited), wipe with a wet cloth, sponge, etc. and rinse with water.  It is amazing how good the glass looks!  Now this is not really homemade or all natural, but I feel better about it than a chemical cleaner and it worked so well.