August 26, 2010 was Jamie's due date. It has been two years. Sometimes it feel like it was just yesterday and sometimes it feels like it has been many, many years. I forgot what today was until I read an email from a dear friend saying she was praying for me. I'm not sure how that makes me feel. On one hand it is sad, but then it means I have been living in the present. Yesterday was the boys birthday party and tomorrow is the first day of school so I have been a little busy. I will not let myself get down because I forgot the date. I have not and will never forget Jamie.
Friday, August 10, 2012
As you know I was in the hospital at the end of May. At that time I was diagnosed with ulcerative colitis. That being, when I was release I immediately began researching colitis. I read a lot online (there are some crazy people out there with GI issues) and purchased a recommended book to read as well. The first week of July I had a colonoscopy. Before I left the nurse told me that nothing was seen that needed to be biopsied and to follow up with Dr. A in four weeks. So on Monday I had my follow up visit. Dr. A told me that I do not have ulcerative colitis! That's great, but I still am having problems so now what? We discussed what was going on with my body and he decide to test me for Celiac disease, which means my body does not response well to gluten. I am still awaiting those results, but have already began researching Celiac disease and changing my diet. My next appointment is the first of September. What is so frustrating is the month wait in between every appointment. Hospital stay and research, 4 weeks later colonoscopy more research and change diet, 4 weeks later Dr. visit new research change diet again, and in 4 weeks I will see Dr. A again. I am ready for a correct diagnoses!
Jeffrey is on his second underwear day of the week. He runs around all day in his Toy Story underwear and it is just so cute. He won't let me take a pic so picture Jeffrey's smile, blonde hair flying (b/c he is always running or skipping) summer tan lines and little boy underwear. It makes my heart smile. I want to capture this memory and hold on to it because I know this stage will be gone soon. Jeffrey will be five in a couple of weeks. He has already started acting "5" but today he is "4" and I will enjoy it. I am reminded of the verse in Ephesians that says, ". . .making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil." It is the end of summer, the boys are bored and my patiences are gone, but today I choose to make the most of the time we have together.