Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Jamie's Birth Day

We arrived at Women's hospital about 1pm on Friday, May 7, 2010. Josh and I went up to labor and delivery on the 4th floor walked to the nurses station and checked in. Our nurses Jackie and Stephanie were waiting for us with everything ready. I got changed into the lovely hospital gown got into the bed and began the process. My temp. was taken and blood pressure and the long list of questions began. Jackie and Stephanie were wonderful--hand picked just for us. Momma and Daddy and Grandma and Liz arrived within the next two hours. At three o'clock I was wheeled down to the OR. Josh waited in a special area while I was prepped. They brought Josh in and at 3:11pm Dr. Schroeder delivered Jamie. She was then placed in a warmer for a few minutes and then I got to hold my little girl. I was shocked and unprepared for how she would look. She is 11inches long, 2lbs. 3.3oz. I knew she would be little, but I didn't realize how undeveloped she would be. I pointed to her little face and asked Jackie, "is that her nose?" She is beautiful and perfect. At some point they took Jamie and finished up on me. I then was taken back to my room for recovery. There is a two visitor limit in labor and delivery, but they let everyone come in and brought in sandwiches, chips, cookies and bottled water for my family. We were able to stay in recovery for as long as we wanted. In the room next door Jackie and Stephanie dressed Jamie in a little white dress (made by a group specially for babies like Jamie) and a yellow cap. They did her feet prints and took pictures with a special blanket I brought with us. They then brought Jamie to me again. I held her and they took more pictures of Josh, Jamie and I. My Grandma also hold and had her picture taken with Jamie. And then that was enough I could no longer hold her, because she wasn't there she is in heaven. I thought I would want to hold her forever, but it was just to hard and painful and I couldn't really look at her--it was very sad. Sometime later Jackie and Stephanie took me to my room on the 2nd floor. They stayed with me while my new nurse took my blood pressure and temp and go everything hooked up in the room. It was very sad for me when Jackie and Stephanie left because they were my connection to Jamie. They were the ones that got to "mother" her. That night Josh and I had a restless night of very little sleep. Someone was in my room every hour doing something.


  1. Suzanne-
    Thank you for sharing your most special moments with your sweet girl. She is in heaven and will be protecting you for the rest of your life! We are praying for your strength and comfort!

  2. Thank you for sharing a very private and special moment in your lives. We are praying daily for your comfort, understanding, and for God to keep your family engulfed in his loving arms.

    Sue Nan

  3. Suzanne, like most of us, I don't know what to say. I would like to say that Jamie was and always will be a part of you and Josh. Within you, she was loved and wanted. She was very lucky to have you as parents. My thoughts and prayers will continue to be with you, Josh and the boys. Love, Aunt Diane

  4. Suzanne, Thank you for sharing your last moments with Jamie with us. What an incredibly special time for you and your family. Sounds as if your nurses were actually angels as they tenderly attended to you and Jamie. My heart goes out to all of you during this difficult time. I just keep praying Jesus will hold you all tightly through it all, and that you will feel His presence and the peace that can come only from Him. Bless you, Brenda

  5. Suzanne, I cannot begin to imagine what you & your family went thru, but you are definitely blessed to have such a great family who was there for you. To be able to share something so personal and heartbreaking truly shows how amazing you are and that your faith has not been broken. My heart goes out to you and your family. God bless you and we will continue to pray for you.